What Should I Do? My Girlfriend Said She Wants To Start Runs

I am deeply pained, I used to make a lot of money before the lockdown.

In fact there was a day I and my babe spent 40k inside the club. I did not save much.

During the lockdown, she was arrested.

I and her had to pay through our nose. I lost most of my clients.

We all agreed that she should move out of her accommodation to a new place which cost a lot of money.

Today she asked to see me and told me she wants to start runs till December to solve family problems and get money to rent a shop (she is very skilled in hair making).

She said after then she will stop. She said is not breaking up with me and will still have my time.

… But I can leave if I want. I could not say a word, just begging her to give me a chance to make more money.

I work and I give her something every month. But I have the believe that when dating you should invest in your self.

So I have a project for the future which she is aware but can’t wait.

The problem is I can’t stop hallucinate about other men pounding her.

How Do I Move On?